This morning, around 10am, a hospice nurse came by to check on Grandma. Together we all shifted Grandma in her bed and I held my Grandma, embracing her in my arms, her head resting in the crook of my elbow. I whispered how much I love her, how grateful I am that she brought me closer to the Lord, I hummed a sweet melody in her ear, I caressed her forehead. We got her comfortable and I left, heading up the mountain to snowboard and clear my thoughts.
In the early afternoon, while heading down the South Chutes, my snowboard had good speed and as I went up and over, it slowed down, almost as though I had no wax on my board. I had this feeling that Grandma had passed at that moment. My board sped back up and I raced down the mountain with Joy and a peace in my heart. When I got to the bottom, my mom had called to tell me that Grandma had passed.
My heart sank but also simultaneously floated with joy, the joy of know that Grandma is with Jesus, with her love ones, out of pain, in His Kingdom. That joy continues. I will mourn that she is not with us, but more than anything, I will celebrate her life, her legacy, her joy, her love, her faith!
When I think back on today, I realize that I was holding Grandma in my arms and loving on her, and at that moment, God was loving on me.. through my Grandma. I felt so connected to Him.
I am so grateful to have been apart of this part life with Grandma. I would not trade it for anything. To look death straight on and see eternal life and Love….. God is So Good!
I love you so much Grandma!! I celebrate you! I feel peace and joy with your passing.
Grandma and I in her last days here on earth.